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For a few months now i have been climbing the stairway to hell as i like to call it, actually it's a bit silly to be calling it that since i now no longer feel like i'm about to die when i reach the top but i found myself thinking for a few weeks now that perhaps it is time the boys went to school on their own, now of course i'm not talking the full way there because there is a busy road especially at that time of the morning when people are leaving for work etc but at least a small part of the way.
So i decided on Monday that i would try it out and see how it went, i mean there is really no reason for me to walk all the way up to the school and enter it just to watch the boys take off their jackets and footwear and say goodbye, because i can say goodbye to them when i drop them off and watch them head off, plus i think this gives the boys a little bit of independence, i don't know if i'm right but i think it's good for them to feel that it is their responsibility to get themselves into the school premises.
My big plan was to walk them all the way up to the staircase and then let them head off themselves up the stairs and into the school yard, basically for anyone who never read my "I Have Met My Nemesis" post a while back it basically goes the path then the staircase followed by the actual school yard but as we were walking up towards the stairs i started to get a horrible feeling in my stomach, i don't know if it's just the fact i have been walking them all the way for so long that i found it hard to let go but i just couldn't do it, i know it sounds stupid but i looked up that staircase and seen how dark it was and i came to realise that i would not be happy until i seen that they had made it up there themselves, so i decided to make a edit to my little plan and took them all the way up the stairs and left them there, at least that way i know they had made it to the school yard.
Again i know it's stupid since the staircase leads directly onto the school yard, but it was dark and it's covered in tree's and bushes and i just didn't like it but i think that is just me having issues letting go, but i took them up and said my goodbyes at the top the staircase. The boys were actually pretty surprised that i wasn't going all the way with them and began to ask me why, was i having to go and get myself ready for something or was it something else that was stopping me from taking them all the way. But after my reply off "You don't need me to take you into school your both big boys now" i could see that little smile on their face, they both seemed to have this small realisation that they were big boys now and couldn't have been more happy about it.
Again i know it's stupid since the staircase leads directly onto the school yard, but it was dark and it's covered in tree's and bushes and i just didn't like it but i think that is just me having issues letting go, but i took them up and said my goodbyes at the top the staircase. The boys were actually pretty surprised that i wasn't going all the way with them and began to ask me why, was i having to go and get myself ready for something or was it something else that was stopping me from taking them all the way. But after my reply off "You don't need me to take you into school your both big boys now" i could see that little smile on their face, they both seemed to have this small realisation that they were big boys now and couldn't have been more happy about it.
This little plan of mines has actually worked out rather well for everyone now including our little Siberian Husky Kaiser, because normally i would leave him home and have to take the boys to school before i came back to pick him up for his morning walk, but now i can actually take him with me and add a little extra time to his morning walk and it allows him to walk with the kids as well which he doesn't get to do that often so all in all it really worked out great.
But what do you guys think? i mean they are only 6 years old and i still get this feeling i'm doing the wrong thing, but seeing the look on their face when they get to walk up the tiny wee hill to the school doors on their own is just brilliant, they are so happy about it.
But i think for now i shall bid you all farewell, so until next time have a great day!
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